step one: uprooting begins

 Okay. So I set this thing up awhile ago and its been at the back of my mind since then. I want to give it a try. I want to write about what God is doing in my life.. in me, in my marriage, my friendships..just every aspect :)
I am praying that this will bring Him glory in some way whether its to give others hope, encouragement, or even if its just for me to process my thoughts better.


    This work that Jesus is doing in me right now goes down deep to my soul. He is pulling out all those nasty roots called jealousy, anger, attitude, selfishness, pride, and no self worth. I am sure there are a lot more than that, but this is what Jesus has showed me so far.
 
 These roots that the enemy has planted in me started when I was little. Like the attitude. As long as I remember I have always had an attitude. My uncle Ed always called me "Fire in the Eyes" I think today my husband refers to this as "the look". I didn't realize that this was a problem until me and Jr started dating. He pointed it out a lot. But me being prideful just pushed it aside.

    Jesus brought me to this place where he told me that I am nothing without Him, so I need to stop doing this on my own. I was broken before him. I didn't realize until Nikki taught on Matthew 5 -The Beatitudes.     
                    
 Those first verses hit me. Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
 Matthew 5:3-4 


Being poor in spirit is brokenness and mourn is crying out to Jesus. God blesses us when we are broken and crying? The world portrays those as weak and we should be ashamed if we are. But this is when God wants us to push into him harder when we are down and seems like our world around is is crumbling.


      Jesus is my hope.
 He is making me beautiful.
 He is pulling out what is not of Him.
 He is replacing it with Love, Joy, Righteousness, Purity.




Beautiful Things- Gungor